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Tuesday, April 12, 2005 ohcomon, who am i lying to. I can be such an asshole at times. like this morning, where the laptop collector actually came down personally to collect my fucking laptop that should have been returned to him by ME months ago. i've seriously lost count of the excuses i gave him. or the many times i promised to go on a certain date but didn't. I overslept. serious here. i really fucking overslept. Okay, so you argued that if i actually gave half a damn about this issue i would have at least made some effort to wake up slightly earlier. and you know what. you're absolutely right. couldnt have hit the fucking nail any straighter on its head. i'm too much of a lazy asshole to make any sort of effort to do down. and all the excuses i told you were all lies. lies. And even if you did commit the unforgivable crime of making me mum wake me up at 11am this morning, and as much as i looked and sounded disgusted at the sight of you outside my window, believe me when i say that im genuinely fucking sorry to cause you so much trouble over my laziness. And if i were in a more sober mood i would even had hell; you know, apologized. i remember that time over the phone, where i played you out twice, you had every fucking right to lash out and curse me to the depths of hell but even a deaf would have detected the sheer amount of restrain you put from flaring all over me. i also rememeber telling myself jesus, i really should go down that wednesday and sort things out once and for all, but no, i fucking overslept again. Wow, i hate meself. Why ? why am i always finding excuses for myself ? Why do when things go wrong do i always look at the other person instead of myself ? Why do i never seem able to kick my procastinating habits ? Like EVER ?? but oh well. i'll still cry meself to sleep while laughing at harper's howler tonight. |
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